Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Here comes your 19th nervous breakdown.


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 Anyone who has followed my blog knows how I bounce back from just about everything.
One exception being the death of a parent. That drags on.

At this point let me just say that there were times during the last 7ish years when I wanted to run screaming into the woods. Right?

#11 - scary Portland bridges. Scarier when doing chemo.

Having cancer, from my point-of-view, is like being on an old-fashioned roller coaster. The wooden kind that just went up, up, up and then plummeted down, G-forces being the only thrill element. You have faith it will go back up.

But it WILL clank to a stop. And that's when you get out the ignored Advance Directive paperwork. Let friends and family know. And then, as was my case, you are told a new treatment has appeared on the horizon. Then you call back friends and family. Stuff the Advanced Directive back in the folder.

And on I go again.

9 comments:

  1. Words fail me Daena. You are a brave, resilient woman who has endured much. Hoping and praying for a treatment that works.

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    1. Thank you. I never think of myself as brave or as enduring much. I just keep on going. I have SO much to do! I really don't have time for cancer!

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  2. Oh dear, while reading this, my heart just kept sinking deeper into my shoes, with each of the countdowns. What overwhelming feelings you must be going through. You have survived so much, already. I pray that this treatment is the answer to your prayers, and I will also keep you in my prayers.

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    1. Oh, i didn't want to make anyone sad. Everybody has life challenges, I just listed some of mine in an attempt to show that things can not only be survived but conquered, learned from and left behind. In fact, maybe for New Year's I'll do a list of challenges I learned from that I'd never have grown from but for cancer.

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    2. That is going to be SOME List. You are an amazing spirit. So very sorry for your losses this year. You are the most optimistic optimist EVER! Wishing you joy and Health in the coming year - with the new treatment and a very Merry Christmas. Cheers!

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  3. Keeping you in my prayers too. What a special person you are to still have the spirit to try again for a cure. God must trust you a lot! May He be with you and may this treatment work for you. Janie

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    1. I have my whole life been an optimist, to the point of being called a Pollyanna. I never thought about God trusting ME! I have to get my head wrapped around that one.

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  4. This was a hard read in some respects and yet it was also inspirational because it shows your strength, your resolve and your love of life despite the obstacles.
    I'm sure you know stress is not exactly a good friend of cancer and can just add to the difficulties. My better half has battled and continues to battle, an aggressive form of prostate cancer. Despite all available treatments/surgeries it continues to grow but, like you, he remains an optimist. Keep those cortisol levels in check!! ;)
    You are my hero, just so ya know. Not only from the "Big C"point of view, but also from your optimism AND your furniture!
    Merry Christmas Daena!

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  5. Prayers and hugs. God does know you're the one to trust. ;-)

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